Sunday, May 28, 2006

two.

how time flies. i was just looking at my month plan... everthing has flown by just like that.

anyway, thanks for the encouragement terence and jon! will be home to meet up with you all very soon.

two days. every hour counts. but i must remember to sleep.

ok. back to work. will have proper update next time. >_<

Monday, May 22, 2006

Oh. Shit.

Hey Jon! DIdn't know people still come by to this cobwebbed corner on the net. hur hur hur. I'm still squashing!! But didn't play much this year cos was trying to recover from my back injury! it's ok already... go back must play with me k?

Viv: Of course! but some aren't that great actually....hmm. But boots at 10 pounds is still the value buy of the year.

Yuan kang! Ey my boots are adidas one k! but haven't tested them yet. cos i'm too screwed by my work. will tell you if they last more than one game.

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Oh. Shit.

This is the time of the year again.

Exams are around the corner. First paper will be in 8 days.

Last year this time, i thought it couldn't get any worse.

It did.

Last year i felt screwed because i just came out from NS.. lost the studying feeling, tried to get to know my basics again... that was tough.

This year, think i kinda overloaded myself with too many things... spanish and most importantly singsoc. Worth it? Maybe. Year 2 aero is busy enough as it is, as i can see from my other coursemates who seem to have hardly any other external commitments besides personal fulfilment. I didn't even have the time to do my tutorials. Don't get me wrong I'm not trying to gain any sympathy here. I'm just here to relieve some stress.

Life has issued me another challenge to do well despite all the other distractions from studying that i've had all year. Isn't challenges what makes life exciting? You wish they weren't there, but without them, life wouldn't be quite the same.

I realise i'm actually being quite incoherent in this post. many thoughts in my head and i can hardly see through them to pick out what i want to say. more next time.

Back to work. Gambatte! Correct right? that means work hard right? Majulah! Correct right? that means onwards right? BANZAI!

Wish me luck!!! >_<

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Narcissists

"An enduring pattern of inner experience and behavior that deviates markedly from the expectation of the individual's culture, is pervasive and inflexible, has an onset in adolescence or early adulthood, is stable over time, and leads to distress or impairment."

1)An exaggerated sense of self-importance:
The simplest everyday way that narcissists show their exaggerated sense of self-importance is by talking about his family, work, life in general as if there is nobody else in the picture. Doesn't matter what anybody else says, the next sentence he says will start with "I".

2)Preoccupation with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, beauty, or ideal love

3) Believes he is "special" and can only be understood by, or should associate with, other special or high-status people (or institutions)
Some people just are not cool enough to be associated with. These people are called losers.

4) Requires excessive admiration
Sincerity is not an issue here; all that matter are frequency and volume.

5) Has a sense of entitlement
They expect automatic compliance with their wishes or especially favorable treatment, such as thinking that they should always be able to go first and that other people should stop whatever they're doing. For example, cutting people off in midsentence and expecting them to shut up to listen to his better ideas.

6) Selfishly takes advantage of others to achieve his own ends
Narcissists use other people to get what they want without caring about the cost to the other people.

7) Lacks empathy
They are unwilling to recognize or sympathize with other people's feelings and needs. They "tune out" when other people want to talk about their own problems.

8) Is often envious of others or believes that others are envious of him.
Refusing to give other people credit, often citing success to other person's excessive good luck, or due to a certain advantage he deems unfair to himself.

9) Shows arrogant, haughty, patronizing, or contemptuous behaviors or attitudes.

"Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD): How to recognise a narcissist"
For full details, please read the following:
http://www.halcyon.com/jmashmun/npd/index.html

Have i ever told you i just love being looked down upon? I love it when people think i'm stupid and whatever i say is just like a little fly buzzing around their ears. Because that makes me work even harder. Not to prove my worth to them, not to prove them wrong, because i know even if i succeed it will lead to point number 8.

So why do i still try when some people think i am inferior?

Because even if everyone looks down on me, i know there are some people in my life who will still be there for me.
Because if looking down on me can make them feel better about themselves, i am glad that i helped.

Because life isn't about fighting with other people, but surviving the fight within yourself.